Apparently, my last post was in January.

that's kind of a long time.

and it will continue to be like so for a while, at least until I find something worthwhile to talk about.

!!!

I consider this to be my more private of the two blogs I keep up, I never learned not to mix business with pleasure, so pretty much anyone who reads the other one is girls I have gotten myself involved with, needless to say, I enjoy this one much more.

Looks like I am not going to school this semester either, I can't say I'm particularly bummed out about it, I did apply to college, I just never got anything back.This is setting me up for many more months of doing nothing, which I guess I am used to by now, I quite frankly feel like doing even less, what is my purpose anyway?
I don't know if it's just my male ego, but I do believe that one of my ex's best friends is trying to get on.I don't know what the etiquette is for this one, but I do know that I kind of don't want anything to do with vaginas and the women who carry them for a while(like I said, I feel like doing even less than I do now). OH and I really enjoy watching everybody hates chris.

and I'm still not done with earthbound.

Trying to go out and skate in the snow is not that good of an idea, this place has stairs but the landing was all covered in the slushy kind of snow so I couldn't skate it, instead I told Tony to just take some pictures on flat, here's one of them:pop shove-it.

what situation? this ain't the jersey shore.

three things:

I been playing Earthbound. I downloaded the ROM, and it works great,the only problem is, I have yet to figure out how to save my game. It's keeping me from enjoying it since I have to start over from the beginning every time...and that is the absolute route to NOT take when playing an RPG.I will figure this out and have one a memorable experience with Ness and company,dammit.

I finally kept it real, I keep saying that I am an asshole, and that is because I am, 99% of the time my cock has been blocked from somewhere has been thanks to me saying something overly insensitive. It felt good this time though, I constantly had to hold back seeing as how this bitch got offended by EVERYTHING. I just wish I had waited until AFTER I played with her boobs, it's alright though, you win some and you lose some.

also, happy new year. this is the decade where all the important life shit will happen I guess.God damn, this is the decade of my 20s.let's take it one step at a time though, Lets go back to school, get a job, skate more,either fuck as many as I can or commit myself to one nice girl,go back to making stuff on synth,oh and figure out how to save on Earthbound.

nonononononono

You know what I notice? that about 98% of the girls I know(and that I will meet most likely) always have one trait in common, and I am making a very true generalization here, most of these girls I know/meet always feel so...self-righteous.

let's first begin with the definition of what being self-righteous is:
Self-righteousness (also called sententiousness) is a feeling of smug moral superiority derived from a sense that one's beliefs, actions, or affiliations are of greater virtue than those of the average person.

It's no secret that every girl is a hater and can never be genuinely happy for anyone else but herself(I am most certain I will get hated on if any girl actually stumbles upon this).That is fine though, that hate has been happening for so long that it's actually something that's mostly accepted and ignored nowadays, it's like saying the word "nigga"(a word that is part of my daily vocabulary), lets go back to the self righteous stuff though.

Almost all girls have this part in their brains in which somehow they are cooler(although being lame is considered cool right now, but only if you are lame in a nice quirky way), have better fashion sense(yeah man, to the thrift store, it will compensate for the $200 shoes), better taste in music(God forbid you like nickelback), better opinions(which they will let you know through their facebook statuses or twitter updates), will always look down on sluts(It's more okay to get fisted in the ass by one dude than to have fucked five dudes),"have no regrets" and "are just living life",and it is guaranteed that they are "better" than the girl their ex is now dating,etc. thats every girl you meet, dude...specially the ones I be messing with.

Every once in a while you get the girl with the normal size ego, but those are rare.so what is my point here? girls will always have a big stick riding up their ass no matter what, so I don't know why I'm even complaining(shit, I just wasted my time typing that only to come to this obvious conclusion?life=wasted).

so i made a playlist for no reason..

selling out hard. thoughts?

1.Animal Collective- "my girls"
2.Passion Pit- "cuddle fuddle"
3.Arcade Fire- "no cars go"
4.Artifex Pereo- "posture and progress"
5.Bloc Party- "this modern love"
6.The Horrors- "who can say"
7.Company Of Thieves- " the tornado song"( thinking of replacing w/"oscar wilde")
8.HORSE the band-" Cutsman"
9.Bat For Lashes- "the wizard"
10.TV On The Radio- "lover's day"
11.Explosions In The Sky- "a poor man's memory"
12.Crystal Castles- "courtship date"
13.Interpol- "leif erickson"
14.Manchester Orchestra- "alice and interiors"
15.Grizzly Bear- "deep sea diver"
16.Tides Of Man- "create couldn't keep up"
17.Dan Deacon- "snookered"

"It all makes sense, were capable of beauty, with sounds that make us cringe,the dogs only hear us now."

so this girl I've been trying to get on, she told me her mom will not let her hangout with me unless I meet her first, it's an understandable mom thing to say. the reason why we can't hang out is because I guess she told the mom about me, and I the mom does not like that I am 19,jobless, and do not go to school.hahaha. that was like such a "goddamn, this lifestyle is catching up to me" kind of blow. But this isn't isn't going to be about me and my end of teenage years crisis, this will focus on the whole deal with the girl.

I don't know why I didn't expect this, it's Mexican parents, which are as wild as they come when it comes to their daughters. I guess after messing with like white girls where questions such as "can my boyfriend spend the night?" are fairly common, I forget that sometimes people still do give a fuck.
Now, the mom gives a fuck, but do I? I mean, sure I'm kinda offended that the girl didn't just straight up lie to her or saw me in secret a couple times before mentioning me to her mom.but I mean, it's not really a big deal, I've met parents before, I KNOW her mom will love me and forget all about how much I'm blowing it at life right now.It's just that I don't know if I want to throw the time and effort that this will take, since there is a change that if I do get her I'm just gonna screw her and then dip out like I been doing lately(I've told you I'm an asshole). But I mean,I like her, she's great, maybe it is worth it...we'll see. I just gotta keep telling myself that if anything, it's worth it because she has pretty big boobs(shallow, but it's actually a big motivator of a thought).